My Future Self…

Inspired by Alissa’s post on things her future at-goal self would do, I decided to sit down and think about things my future at-goal self would be doing. During one of my therapy sessions, Mary asked me to visualize myself at my healthy weight, whatever that may be–I immediately told her that was impossible, how could I visualize something I’d never experienced?

I finally gave in and just tried, but all I could come up with was myself in 2004, the summer before my junior year of college when I took diet pills and weighed 175. I wouldn’t exactly consider that healthy, considering I was living off of Phentermine, Diet Coke, Ben & Jerry’s and french fries. Oh, and beer… lots of beer.

I’ve since attempted this exercise a few other times, mostly ending up with some weird jigsawed version of myself, so maybe by writing it out in list form, I can paint a better picture of the person I hope to become when I’m finally out of the weight loss phase of my journey…

  • Wake up between 5-5:30, go for a 3-4 mile run and run the entirety.
  • Maintain a proper workout schedule, incorporating running and other cardio and strength training.
  • Have a minimal wardrobe made up of clothing that I love, that is easily mixed and matched.
  • Prepare breakfast and lunches and outfits the night before so mornings aren’t so rushed and crazy and stressful.
  • Have a (mostly) clutter-free house; be more conscientious about the new items we bring into the house. Encourage gifts of experiences rather than more “stuff” from family and friends.
  • Have a dedicated meal planning day and grocery shopping day. Incorporate 1 new recipe each week. Have several crock-pot meals and “cook once, eat twice” meals in the rotation so I’m not so stressed in the evenings after work.
  • Since I’ve stopped biting my nails, get regular manicures to keep my nails healthy.
  • Be more intentional with the time I have in the mornings/evenings and on the weekends with the kids. Much less TV for them.
  • Be more intentional with the time I have to myself after the kids are in bed. Don’t just veg out until I pass out on the couch.
  • Love all my wobbly bits, and have the confidence to wear shorts during these God-forsaken New Orleans summers.
  • Be warm and open with everyone I meet; be vulnerable enough to open myself up to making the first moves toward new friendship.
  • Sugar is a sometimes food, no longer a daily food. Get to the store/farmer’s market often enough to have fresh produce on hand always.
  • Be at peace with myself and the person I’ve become.
Obviously, not everything is weight-related, but I think it all goes hand-in-hand. I know that when I’m on track and feeling good, I’m more inclined to follow through on my intentions. It might take time, but I WILL get there. I already see several things that I can start working on now in order to make this vision a reality, and I know the only thing holding me back is me. So now I’m going to print out this list and put it in a prominent place and get to work!