A Challenge to Myself

So, if you’ve spent any time whatsoever looking at the food logs that I post, you’ve probably thought to yourself, “Wow, she really loves Starbucks,” or “Man, she sure eats a lot of sugar,” or something to that effect.

Don’t worry, I’ve noticed.

My little habits cost me a lot PointsPlus and a lot of money–and let’s be honest, the pleasure derived from these things is sooooo not worth the cost! I hadn’t been that bad with Starbucks until they had their half-price happy hour the other week–of course I thought, “Oh man, half price! I have to take advantage of this!” And boy, did I. Now I just can’t stop. This morning, I stopped there before work, and ended up turning around and leaving because the line was literally 20 people deep and the baristas at this particular store are ridiculously slow; like, I’ve been the only person in there with no one ahead of me, and it still took 5 minutes to get my drink. But I digress… I didn’t actually get a drink this morning, but I can’t stop thinking about it. 

So, in an effort to save my money and my health, I’m issuing a challenge to myself–Starbucks no more than twice per week (unless someone else is paying), and reel in the sugar at night. Since I don’t actually keep any sweets in the house, one of us will often go out after dinner specifically to purchase some ridiculously sugary delicacy. We broke this habit for a while, but little by little the frequency has crept back up. I did really well when I kept a bag of Dove Dark Chocolate Promises in the house; they’re 1 point each and just 1 or 2 after dinner totally satisfied my sweet tooth, so I’m going to go back to that. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I’ll never have rich, indulgent dessert again–I just want to break this current habit of having it nearly every night because that’s just too much.

I think it’ll be a little difficult at first, but hopefully after a week or two it will be much easier and ultimately reshape my current habit. There’s no end-date to this challenge; I’m going to keep it going as long as I can.

This is just one reason why I find it necessary to write down everything I eat–because I can look back through my journal and pinpoint what habits need to be dealt with, such as this sugar habit. I know if I wasn’t writing it all down, I could easily say, “It’s just one Frappuccino per day, that’s not bad,” or “It’s just one dessert at night, that’s not bad,” completely separating the two and not acknowledge how much sugar I was actually putting into my body on a near-daily basis.

I’m also hoping that by telling you all about my challenge and posting my food logs here, it will help me stay accountable since it won’t just be me who knows about it!

Here are Tuesday and Wednesday’s logs–still haven’t found my journal! My WW center is not open at convenient times for me during the week, so I’ll probably just wait til my meeting on Saturday to pick one up.

A Challenge to Myself A Challenge to Myself

I haven’t gotten any exercise this week, but despite my sugar habit, my eating hasn’t been ridiculously out of control. I am in charge of my decisions, of the food I put into my body. I’ve noticed that I don’t feel as good as I do when I’m exercising and eating less sugar, so I’m doing something about it. I am in charge.

It’s that time again!

Remember a while ago when I was in such a funk and decided it was related to PMS? Well, I’m feeling that zero-energy, total lack of exercise motivation again–though since I recognize it now, I’m hoping to stay ahead of it and not let it get to me so much. Sunday night and last night, I literally passed out before 9pm–both nights, I planned to just lay down for a minute after getting the kids to bed, and both nights I definitely did not see 9:00. I didn’t run yesterday or today, and it’s really amazing how different my body feels–like, everything is just sore, as if my muscles are just begging to be challenged! Marc is home tonight, so my plan is to get to the gym and at least ride the bike for a while.

In other news, I still can’t find my food tracker–I looked all over my car, and all the typical places it would be in our house. One of the kids must have gotten their hands on it, so who knows where it could be! I put everything into the online tracker this morning, and doing that reminded me of why I prefer paper tracking so much–something about actually writing it down just feels so much more real to me. It’s hard to explain. Suffice it to say, if I can’t find it this evening then I’ll go get a new one tomorrow.

Here are my food logs for the last few days… not the prettiest, but I tracked!

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I hope you can read those. Have a great day!

Weigh In + NSV!

Saturday’s weigh-in was a little disappointing:

Weigh In + NSV!

I’m attributing the small gain to the pizza and sushi I ate on Friday (helloooo, water retention); also, I was a little constipated again (not sure why this is suddenly happening so frequently, but it sure is annoying!). No matter though; it is what it is.
I somehow managed to leave my food journal at home this morning; I feel lost without it! So, can’t post any food logs right now. I didn’t have the best weekend, food wise (though everything was delicious), but I still want to post them for accountability.
Today I had a great NSV (non-scale victory) though! It’s just what I needed, too, after the weigh-in disappointment. I have several shirts that I bought from thrift stores in 2013 that wound up being too tight when I tried them on at home; since they’re non-returnable, I decided just to keep them until I was able to fit into them. Well, today I’m wearing one that didn’t even come close to buttoning back then! The bottom button is a little snug (thanks, baby pooch!), but it’s definitely wearable, so…
Weigh In + NSV!
Happy Monday!

Computer Monitor Mantras (+ Food Logs)

When I started on this journey of making peace with myself (and food), I felt there were a few things I needed to stay at the forefront of my mind. I thought, “Hey, I’ll type up these sayings and put them in a highly visible place,” and that place turned out to be my computer monitor at work. Considering I spend about 40 hours per week sitting in front of it, I thought that was a pretty good place. So I typed them up and cut them out, and taped them to my monitor.

Computer Monitor Mantras (+ Food Logs)

“My self esteem…” and “I am enough” came first; “What do I need…” came today, thanks to Michelle at Diary of Aspiring Loser Maintainer. Having these in face all day every day has really helped; when I’m feeling down or bingey, I look at these again and again, and it helps. Perhaps one day I won’t need the constant reminder that “I am enough,” and I’ll simply believe it because it’s true.

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I’ve gotten somewhat behind on posting my food logs…

Computer Monitor Mantras (+ Food Logs)

I gotta say, I was a little surprised that my roast beef sub from Subway ended up 10 points–I don’t even get cheese! I’m convinced it’s all in the bread, which is just ridiculous. Oh well; at least it was delicious! And today’s log…

Computer Monitor Mantras (+ Food Logs)

No activity today; my stomach was bothering me this morning and my knees were sore andfranklyijustdidnotfeellikerunning. It’s been a good week!

My “Escape”

So, as a mom of a 2-year-old and 3.5-year-old who works full time outside the home, whose husband works several nights per week, I don’t get out much. My big night out generally consists of….

GROCERY SHOPPING!!!
And you know what? I love it. I do most of my shopping at Target because I have a REDcard debit card, plus Cartwheel, plus coupons, and I’ve found it actually is just the cheapest place for groceries around here. (I get meat and produce from Rouses, a local grocery store chain.) I love their Simply Balanced brand too, for cheap organic options.

My "Escape"

I spend roughly 2-3 hours shopping, and pretty much enjoy every minute of it. I refuse to go shopping with the kids because, well, they’re little and impatient, and Marc’s not fun to go with because he doesn’t understand why I have to slowly go up and down all the aisles and look at every little thing. So, it’s become my time. I stop at Starbucks before I go (there’s not one inside, but there’s one just down the block) and take my sweet, sweet time. I’m sure other moms can relate!
Here’s my food log from yesterday…
My "Escape"
You might note the lack of fruit/vegetables–a sure sign that it’s time to get to the store!